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Stuttering Back to School

8/31/2015

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Summer is ending. Commercials for back-to-school sales flood TV, newspapers, and radio. The part of Target that once held lawn chairs and tiki torches now holds composition books and glue sticks. A mix of anxiety and excitement fills the air.

The new school year brings out anxieties and excitement in me as well. How will my students react to my way of speaking? Will I be able to communicate what I want when I want? Will there be new adults in my building who I have to talk to? How will they treat me? Will I be expected to share what I did over the summer in a faculty meeting? No matter how strongly I believe there is nothing wrong with my voice, these situations will probably always be stressful for me.  

I think it’s good to be aware of these anxieties and remember that many of my students will be coming to school feeling the same way. Again this year I will be hosting the ‘collab’ class. This means I will have a number of disabled students in my homeroom and for math as well. Generally these are students with what are called ‘high incidence’ disabilities (learning disabilities, autism, attention deficit and speech and language difficulties). I love these kids and the gifts and variety they add. I will happily continue to host this class as long as they let me.

For the first time since I started teaching, I will have a student who stutters. I'm thrilled! I had an opportunity to spend a little time with him last year so we already have a rapport. Mostly we ate lunch together and played some basketball. Stuttering only came up a few times but I got the sense he didn’t like to talk about it. I might have been the same way at his age. This will be foremost in my mind as I plan out the first few days of school.

What I’m not excited about is the possibility of being asked to keep data on him. I don’t know if this will happen, but I have been asked to keep data on other IEP goals before. An IEP is an individualized education plan and is written by special educators and speech/language pathologists to target certain academic or behavior goals for identified students. Because I am also certified as a special educator I like to have input in writing goals, but I have never had the opportunity to work with an SLP in creating any.

To be honest, I really dislike keeping any data that I don't agree with. I did it last year when I reluctantly assessed all students using timed math fact fluency tests. The district decided that it somehow indicated proficiency if students could rapidly solve math facts. Never mind the fact that virtually everyone in the developed world has access to a calculator. Before we did the test, I reminded my kids that my dad is a doctor and doesn't always remember his multiplication facts and not to feel like this was any reflection on themselves. I also never showed the kids their scores unless they really pressured me.

I just cringe at this type of data collection. I am never going to keep tally marks for how often an autistic student tells me his birthday is coming or how many vocal tics a student with Tourette's makes. This might get me in trouble with my administration, but these goals are distracting and irrelevant. Comments about an upcoming birthday or some random sounds don't bother me or any students, and stifling those behaviors can cause discomfort with the student who feels the need to express them.   

I'm not sure data collection itself is harmful to students. I find nothing wrong with setting and reaching goals. There are IEP goals I will gladly work on and keep data for. Math problem solving (i.e. story problems) is my favorite academic goal and if any student has math goals in their IEP, this one should be included. Likewise, behavioral goals that focus on organization also strike me as helpful. Perhaps it's because I am a tidy person, but it seems like organization is a valid thing to teach all students.

Perhaps what needs to change is that the students need to be more involved in setting their own goals: the goals need to reflect the real needs of the student, not a standardized set of data. This might mean goals are not always quantitative. Personally, if I wrote a goal for myself involving stuttering, it wouldn't be that I use prep sets 6/10 times when speaking words that begin with/m/. My goal would be that I had positive feels in 9/10 of my speaking situations. Special Educators and SLPs, in my experience, never write goals like those because they don't know how to measure them. It would take the student keeping track of their own data. But what is wrong with that?

As I head into the new school year the mixed emotions of excitement and anxiety will surely begin to balance out as I get to know my students and get comfortable with the new staff.  Right away I will begin working on creating a classroom community that encourages personal growth that is meaningful and relevant to students’ lives. I'm sure I'll find ways to deal with IEP goals I find disagreeable and perhaps I'll come back to tell about it.

-Eli

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Pamela Mertz link
8/31/2015 02:30:47 am

Great post. I also stutter and work in a school. I don't teach, but am the outreach specialist for our building. I go out and do presentations to all of the local schools in our area to encourage kids to consider career technical education (CTE) as an option for their 11th and 12th grade years. I also do a lot of building support work in the school, so I too worry about introductions to new staff and students. I too think there is nothing wrong with my voice and my stutter but I still get anxious in new situations, and like you, probably always will.
I like your idea of having students develop some of their own IEP goals. You could ask them to figure out how'd they track them. Kids are creative. I say let them be creative and they might surprise us.
Good luck with the new school.
Pam

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Eli
9/4/2015 03:08:50 pm

Thanks, Pam! The kids don't start until Tuesday, but this first week back has been exhausting but great.
-Eli

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Frank Stechel
9/3/2015 02:12:58 am

I didn't understand when you wrote: "My goal would be that I had positive feels in 9/10 of my speaking situations." I was under the impression that IEP goals are jointly developed by the student, parents and school. I realize their are probably "template" goals but the use of these should be the exception rather than the rule (hopefully).
Frank

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Eli
9/4/2015 03:09:23 pm

Frank,
Thanks for your comment. First, I would give myself a goal that measured how positive my feelings ('feels' is a bit of contemporary phrasing) are in speaking situations because that's more important to me than fluency. I don't mind stuttering but I do want to feel comfortable in speaking situations. I think 90% of the time is a reasonable goal. Second, in my experience, students are not involved in creating their own IEP goals. I'll admit that I have pretty limited experience since this is only my 4th year teaching. Also, I teach in an elementary school, so perhaps it happens more as students move up. If you have a different experience, that's great; I think students should be involved.
-Eli

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